When DeAndree was murdered in July of 2020, I felt immense and persistent survivor’s remorse. I felt helpless and powerless. Although we were separated at the time of his death, I felt I wasn’t whole without him.

While he was resting peacefully and still is, I had to continue living when I didn’t want to. When it ached the worst. When the pain was the most unbearable and unimaginable.

I am here to assure you that God is a comforter. I thank God for His mercy, love, strength, and support.

For my fellow grief warriors, I hear you. I see you. I am you.

🤍

“I was blinded by survivor’s remorse,
I was supposed to build.

…Still solid, still here.”

-Roddy Ricch